Mark 11:22, 24-26
New International Version (NIV)
22 “Have faith in God,” Jesus answered. 24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. 25 And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.” [26]
I have a Very Hard time Believing in God .
I know that He is real , but believing that he is there for me at all times and that He is listening to my prayers when I pray so just so hard for me to believe right now ...
When I was 16 I begged God almost every night to not let my parents get a divorce , but it still happened ... I lost my faith and I've noticed that I've going down hill since then ... I stopped praying , stopped listening to any Pastor , started listening to wrong music , and stopped reading the Bible .
I... ... ... I'm almost at the bottom of the trench , there is a rope next to me so that I can climb back to the top .... but... do i take hold of it ? ..... or do i hit rock bottom and learn from all my mistakes that I have made and that I'm going ...? .... I don't know what to do any more .
Every time I open the BIBLE I read something I was never taught to do. .... I slam the book shut , put it down , ... and the I won't look at it for weeks . For Example - For as long as i can remember I was always taught to never ask anything from god . then about 4 weeks ago i read a verse similar to this ->
Isaiah 7:11 “Ask the Lord your God for a sign , whether in the deepest depths or in the highest heights.” <- after reading that I got so mad at my parents and god .
Anger toward my parents for not telling me or showing me this
Anger towards God for not allowing me to find it in the first place .
Then about 5 months ago , I started talk to a friend , long story short now he's my best friend . He has helped me more then any human has in a long time and I thank so much him for that . I've started to read the Bible more then once a month , i've noticed more of my horrible actions , and i've been praying more (slowly but surely) and more .
Anger toward my parents for not telling me or showing me this
Anger towards God for not allowing me to find it in the first place .
Then about 5 months ago , I started talk to a friend , long story short now he's my best friend . He has helped me more then any human has in a long time and I thank so much him for that . I've started to read the Bible more then once a month , i've noticed more of my horrible actions , and i've been praying more (slowly but surely) and more .
As of right now I'm holding no to the rope . Now i just have to decide to climb up . so i guess all i can do is put a verse at the end of this post ...
Love you ,
Bekca
Mark 11:22-25
22 And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God.
23 For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
24 Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.
25 And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses
Mark 11:22-25
22 And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God.
23 For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
24 Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.
25 And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses
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