Respect their choice.

So as most of you know by now , I have a boyfriend. 

As of tomorrow night we will have been together for three weeks.

I was talking to my friend and he told me that he liked me and when my boyfriend and I are no longer together to text him and he'd take me on a real date. 

In all honesty, I don't like this guy. He is to forward a. He doesn't know when to stop , and he's clingy towards me.

He knows that I have a boyfriend. But he won't leave me alone. 

If you like a girl but she has a boyfriend , please be respectful and stay away from her. 

 

I don't like telling people that I have a boyfriend because people keep trying to break Us up. And we will not breakup for a very long time or at all. 

I want to marry him. I've never been this happy with anyone and my friends that know me well have told me to keep him because they've never seen me happy like this. 

Please just back away and respect the choice. 

- bekca 

Never again ...

So .... I had another nightmare.

But this one .... This one was different.

It had girls , boys , friends , family , dogs , wolves , and cats... 

It wasn't a nightmare because of how scary the thing around me were...

I was a nightmare because I was the scary thing...

I could feel all my emotions , I even woke up with a sore hand. 

I was fine till cats came up to me. 

I would hit them , kick them , and I'm sure if I had a bat I would have used the cats like baseballs.... 

I hated them so much ... 

I've never felt that much hatred towards anything.

I just kept on going at them. 

This one cat I'm pretty sure I killed cause I just kept hitting its head... 

I never want to feel that way again. 

.... I hope all of you are sleeping better then I am and for those of you who are up , good morning. 

~ Bekca 

Who I am.

All these people telling me to do what makes me happy... 

All these people telling me what do to, where to be ,what time to be there,  how to act , how to dress , how to look at things, how to save money , how to talk , what to listen to , and what not to listen to...

Thanks to all of them I don't know who I am , who I want to be , or how I'm going to get there. 

I started hating myself because I had nothing figured out...

I put in my earbuds and try to block all their voices out... 

For a while it was working .... But ... It stopped ... 

I started going on walks. 

Singing to myself. 

Dancing in my room by myself.

Thinking to myself and keeping my mouth shut. 

I've learned that I like who I am. 

I love watching the stars. 

I love making people happy.

I love skulls.

I love chokers.

I love spikes.

I love being happy.

I found a guy that just takes my breath away every time he says hi.

I love take my long walks to QT and just sitting there for hours.

I love listening to Celtic music. 

I'm still in love with drawing 

And knowing all of this about myself just makes me happy.

I don't need people to tell me who I am. I just need to finish finding my whole self. 

I'm Rebekca and I love myself for once.