I have a Job Interview in about an hour and a half..
I'm scared and excited.
If I get it then my whole schedule will change cause its a Night Shift Job.
I will have every weekend off. i will be making more then $10 an hour.
I just..... I'm scared....
I won't be able to see my boyfriend very much... I love my boyfriend. I've never been this happy with anyone else. No one has ever treated me as a queen like he does.
I feel like I've lost all my friends that I used to have and I'm back to being alone ....
I rarely talk to Monica or raven anymore... which makes me really sad.
Monica is like a sister to me. She and I have a bucket list of things we want to do together.
I loose hair when I'm stressed and I swear I'll be baled by the end of the year. I've lost so much that when I pull the hair out of the drain it looks like a black mouse ... that's bad! That's really bad !! I have to pull it out at least once a week!
I'm tired most of the time. Not physically , just mentally and emotionally. it's sad...
I have to fake it every day just to allow people to think that I'm alright.. it hurts.
day in and day out. then when i finally cant take it anymore , I'm so quiet and mean. I just stop caring about everyone and everything. I get burned and I can't even feel it. I'm afraid that it's going to drive me insane...
Being able to feel is the best part about being human. you can feel the warmth of the sun on your skin, the cold of the moon on your face, the sweetness of the flowers during spring.... It's what makes us human ... I feel like i'm turning in to a cyberman .... "delete"... "delete" (haha). It's crazy .... just the simplest things can make the biggest impact on a persons life...
I'm scared and excited.
If I get it then my whole schedule will change cause its a Night Shift Job.
I will have every weekend off. i will be making more then $10 an hour.
I just..... I'm scared....
I won't be able to see my boyfriend very much... I love my boyfriend. I've never been this happy with anyone else. No one has ever treated me as a queen like he does.
I feel like I've lost all my friends that I used to have and I'm back to being alone ....
I rarely talk to Monica or raven anymore... which makes me really sad.
Monica is like a sister to me. She and I have a bucket list of things we want to do together.
I loose hair when I'm stressed and I swear I'll be baled by the end of the year. I've lost so much that when I pull the hair out of the drain it looks like a black mouse ... that's bad! That's really bad !! I have to pull it out at least once a week!
I'm tired most of the time. Not physically , just mentally and emotionally. it's sad...
I have to fake it every day just to allow people to think that I'm alright.. it hurts.
day in and day out. then when i finally cant take it anymore , I'm so quiet and mean. I just stop caring about everyone and everything. I get burned and I can't even feel it. I'm afraid that it's going to drive me insane...
Being able to feel is the best part about being human. you can feel the warmth of the sun on your skin, the cold of the moon on your face, the sweetness of the flowers during spring.... It's what makes us human ... I feel like i'm turning in to a cyberman .... "delete"... "delete" (haha). It's crazy .... just the simplest things can make the biggest impact on a persons life...
