Hey guys
I just have a lot on my mind right now and I don't know how to express what I'm feeling completely without blowing up this blog. I was listening to this guy on Facebook or Instagram saying that Millennials are stuck-up little pricks and that most of us abused everything possible trying to use all resources that don't include us actually finding a job or working. And I think it's just some of us not all of us I've had a good job for the past three years and I've tried so hard to make do for myself without help although I needed help but never asked for it I've almost ended up on the streets a few times but I never begged so I have to be grateful for that. I am grateful but at the same time I'm upset because knowing that there were people watching me fail and just standing there and not seeming like they cared at all and it hurts because those people were friends and family and that's probably what hurts me most about it all and the funny thing is that half of them don't even know that I was that low but at the same time I can't blame them when it was my fault for not asking for help even though what I did I was rejected.
Someone I know on Instagram was saying that they were going to get off Instagram because it was taking too much of their time and they needed to focus on their family and just kept saying you know if you feel in your heart you really need to think about it and you know I've been sitting here for the past like 20 minutes thinking about it and one of the things that really got to me that this person said was if you're getting on social media too compare yourself to other people then you just need to get off because comparing yourself to people is not going to make you happier bring you any sort of Joy whatsoever and I think that just kind of made me realize that I'm one of those people who go on there to compare myself to all of these skinny little girls when I'm sitting here 250 lb and I guess that just kind of made me realize that Instagram is one of those sites that you just basically go on there to compare yourself to other people and what they're doing in their lives and how they're living and it I don't know it just kind of made me realize that I think it's time for social media to be cut off and for people to realize that social media your phone that's not all that's out there in the world if you actually put your head up and look there are so many things I just I couldn't imagine if I was one of those people who had my head shoved in my phone you know about 2 years ago and I admit the chance to meet the most wonderful man I'm with right now and the fact that it is so likely for everybody to just not realize what they actually have and what they're being given and to just take all of it for granted it hurts because I mean when you think about it there are you know yes there are the kids in Africa and yes there's poverty everywhere there slavery there's so many things wrong with this world but I mean if we seriously I'll take just I don't know just 10 minutes without you know your phone which a lot of people have problems with that but I mean just all at once you know everyone just turn their phone off I think that a lot of things would change just in 10 minutes I mean no one would look at their social media no one would be updating statuses taking pictures or any of that and it would I don't know I think it would make a difference.
But one of the things for me is that Facebook is one of those things where I get to keep up with my family and you know how they're doing even though they don't talk to me much. So I think that instead of posting you know things about how great your life is how about posting how great someone else's life is or how amazing the world looks today even though it is a horror show out there I don't know I think that I've everybody just want a day without their phone I think the whole world would just crash and burn cuz everyone's so stuck on their phones and internet and social media. I think that everyone needs to just take a day just to re-evaluate themselves and their lives and what they're really doing and what needs to be done because sometimes you just need to take a day for yourself away from everyone. In all honesty the only reason why I have a smartphone right now is because I use Music a lot to come for me and to lift me up and I don't know just make me feel better even though I know that the second I look on Instagram that confidence is just going to go way back down. I love you guys but I don't think social media is good for anybody at all that's why they made mailboxes and paper so that way we could write down things and send them through US Post Service or any mail service companies. This way people could keep in contact with each other but apparently we're just evolving into something far worse.
Becca <3
